Monday, September 30, 2013

911

Remembrance is ideal, but my sentiments is to conceal.
How I feel?
The day I woke up, got in the shower, turned the TV on and got choked up.
Roommate and I from Jersey, six and a half hours and across the River...
Hit iconic symbols of greatness did two steel birds to deliver.
A blow to humanity.
The only phone working I passed along to preserve the flow of sanity.
Class as normal. Seats with empty bodies and elsewhere minds in turmoil.
I chose to skip my lectures just to console her.
One score...two decades, I was to celebrate.
Visual, spiritual, and physical destruction were these acts of hate.
Waterfront view was so serene and beautiful for some;
Now hazy, foggy, smell of death, and no calls to 9-11.
 
Arch1tekt™
 
 

Saturday, September 28, 2013

Untitled

I finally found it!  I've been searching for this one for a minute until I realized I posted it to facebook.  Something told me to check my notes.  I remember writing this, but I don't know how long ago.  If I had to guess, it was probably around '07.

I connect with the memories of fallen soldiers ;
As my rhythmic pace, hard and emotionless face mimics those broke and burdened by too much weight on too little shoulders.
With each expression of love...
I give sense and hope to my Brothers who grew up too soon in lack of...
A genius destroyed by lack of knowledge;
Which caused his actions to push him closer to that edge...
A breaking point...
The point at which his mind becomes awake, but unaware of how to get out.
It's too hard...
This is the life he... we chose;
Each hand to hand reimbursement was an exchange for another's sense and hope...
Broken down, rolled up, pulled... coughed... pulled... coughed... his future dying from his past. Another dream deferred, lit up and burned into smoke.
This is the life he... we chose.
A question never to be answered when it was never posed...
What if...?

Arch1tekt™



Black Girl Forced

I over heard the call to her older sister;
Gasp for air, said "Oh my God, this is going to be the Coldest Winter!"
De ja vu this was her in-law sister six years prior.
Stab in the back, slap in the face;
So many examples of what not to do, but she ignored with haste.
Inquired on the loss of her youthful innocence, and her sister warned against.
Now she is a Black Girl Forced to live a life sentence.
Enrolled in college, already got an advanced degree, trying to better herself, she just started what she cannot finish.
Blindly in love, or just bliss from her ignorance.
She got support all around, so she won't be lost.
Her cost? She's a Black Girl Forced to advert her destiny.

Arch1tekt™


Friday, September 27, 2013

Conversation with My Dad (Through the Eyes of My Son)

Me: " "
Son thinking: Italicized
Son talking: CAPS

"Alright Pop, it's me and you tomorrow, OK?!"
     I'll be glad just to sit on the couch and watch Rocky all day.
"What do you want to do?" "We can go to the park play basketball, do a couple of laps, go to the museum..."
     We can play the Wii game, watch some TV...
WHAT ABOUT THE STORE?  YOUR MONEY, BUY A TOY THAT'S NEW?! MAYBE WE CAN BUY MOMMY AND MADDIE SOMETHING AT THE MALL!
"Maybe, but we can't do everything, so we'd have to choose what we want to do."
WHY?
"Time is limited and we only have a few. So we have to choose something."
ANYTHING?
"Something!  Anything that will keep you/me entertaining, non aggravating, and won't make me wish I didn't give you the choice."
Hmmm
CAN WE GO TO THE MOVIES?  GET MC DONALD'S ?  GO TO THE STORE, GET A TOY, COME HOME, AND WATCH AN EPISODE OF THE VOICE?
"You are your Mother's Son. We'll see."
YES?
"Maybe"
YES?!
"Maybe, if you listen and prove those ears work to me."
YES!
I knew he would!  My Dad is the greatest!  Older version of me...ageless!
THANK YOU DADDY!
"Your welcome buddy."
OH YEAH! I'M GOING TO GET A TOY! WHERE'S MY WALLET AND MY MONEY? WE GOING TO PLAY BASKETBALL AT THE PARK WHILE IS SUNNY!
"Brush your teeth, say your prayers, get in the..."
I ALREADY DID!
"OK, get in bed!"
Thank you God, for my Daddy, for me being off from school tomorrow, and for my pillow pet that I lay down my head. Amen!
LOVE YOU DADDY!
"I love you too buddy! Goodnight!"
GOODNIGHT!
I can't wait for tomorrow!

Arch1tekt™


Thursday, September 26, 2013

Writing

I was asked why do I have a blog and write when I don't tell anyone that I even have a Blog. I was also asked why write and publish for yourself? I immediately thought of a piece from 2005. The name, so appropriately titled is Writing.

August 15, 2005 10:40 pm

Writing

Writing calms me down.
It's a mediator between my actions and my thoughts.
A plane above the rest where I can express my thoughts and sound out a frown.
Its sincere and unaffected by outside influence;
Although based on direct and indirect constipuents.
Its how a mute soul speak through a loud speaking pen;
Free from boundaries within.  

August 15, 2005 10:45pm

(M)uster (D)eath from (M)ethyl (A)mphetamine

Unlocking your mind to new possibilities?
Your inhibitions will dissolve in pores drowned by perspired salt seas while you heighten your senses to a new level of capabilities.
Let your fingers taste the surrounding textures as your nose sift through the visual affairs.
Feel each strand tug on your head as your hair move to the musical snares.
Fluid movements and fluttered brain wave lengths can cause a stutter and an non fictitious sense of strengths.
Starving your lungs while feeding your brain with euphoria...your forgetting to breath.
Involuntary is now a necessity.
Your mind is at ease, but this is not tranquility.
You've passed out and your heart racing with a definite number of beats.
Each slowing down with Death counting every second you didn't cheat.

Arch1tekt™

Friday, September 20, 2013

Unfinished Business

I need to focus on one thing at a time.  If only I could pause the world like Adam Sandler in that movie where he had a remote to control the world.  I would get so many things done. Take a look at some of the unfinished random "things" that goes through my mind in the inserted picture.  I still have more on  my computer and more on my tablet.  Maybe when I get a weekends off job, I can do more with my free time.  I'm sure everyone has said the same thing.  "If only I had 2 more hours to do what I want..." I guess I will just sick it up and finish as I do now, little at a time!

Friday, September 13, 2013

Patience to Grow


“Patience is a Virtue.”  We all know this because we have heard it many times.  What is Patience?  What is a Virtue?  Why is Patience a Virtue?  To understand the answers to those questions, lets understand where the phrase originated.
We live in a day and age where it’s the norm to throw out clichés.  “Everything will work out in due time.”  “Let go and let God.”  “Patience is a virtue.”  The problem with clichés is not that they may not be true, but that they are overly and improperly used more times than none.  A cliché is an expression, idea, or element of an artistic work which has become overused to the point of losing its original meaning, or effect, and even, to the point of being trite or irritating, especially when at some earlier time it was considered meaningful or novel.  So when clichés are used, the person receiving is not receptive to the true meaning.
One cliché heard throughout my life is the previously stated “Patience is a virtue”.  Like other phrases that have turned into clichés, this has derived from the Bible.  Patience is one of the fruits of the Holy Spirit, who guides our actions and path.  A virtue is a positive trait or quality deemed to be morally good and thus is valued as a foundation of principle and good moral being.  Personal virtues are characteristics valued as promoting collective and individual greatness. The opposite of virtue is vice.  Therefore Patience is a characteristic of the Holy Spirit, which also means Patience is a Virtue of the Spirit.

King James Version
Galatians 5:22-23 says, “ But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, meekness, temperance: against such there is no law. 
New International Version
Galatians 5:22-23 says, “But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.
Amplified Version
Galatians 5:22-23 says, “But the fruit of the [Holy] Spirit [the work which His presence within accomplishes] is love, joy (gladness), peace, patience (an even temper, forbearance), kindness, goodness (benevolence), faithfulness, gentleness (meekness, humility), self-control (self-restraint, continence). Against such things there is no law (that can bring a charge].

This is neither about clichés nor the fact that many don’t know common phrases and sayings are derived from the Bible.  This is about Patience.  This is the same Patience David spoke about in Psalms.

New International Version
Psalm 37:7-9
Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him; do not fret when people succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes. Refrain from anger and turn from wrath; do not fret-it leads only to evil. For those who are evil will be destroyed, but those who hope in the Lord will inherit the land.

Before we dig into these verses, allow me to digress and share quite the fitting story.
With today's economy there is a steady increase of the margins from Poor to Upper Class.  In return, the Middle Class is being phased out and we are ending up with the Haves and Have Nots.  All across America we have seen households that could not afford Healthcare by either not working a full time job, or plainly not being able to afford the costs.  Many of us take this for granted because we tend to not have annual dentist appointments and physical and eye exams.  For many of us who seem healthy on the outside with no symptoms of health problems, it’s relatively easy to think we've wasted thousands of dollars on health insurance.  We've grown accustomed to thinking, it’s better to have it and not need it than not have it and need it.  What would happen if you were a part of the Poor Class?  What would happen if you were the head of your family, working overtime, and despite doing everything “right”, was only able to keep your family head above water long enough for the next pay check?  What would happen if a sudden unexpected life change occurred and you now find yourself utilizing the health insurance that you deem a waste of money to help with the cost of your child’s medical expenses?  What would happen when you find out that the health insurance was not willing to pay the total costs of the procedure that will save your child’s life?  This may seem like an unfortunate time of events, but it was the case for Michael, a child who needed a heart transplant.  What do you do?
Naturally, when you ask a Christian in church, they will say, “I would start praying.”  Ask that same person outside of church two days earlier, Friday evening, after a long day at work, one week after payday, and you might get a different response.  It’s something about a pay week that makes you feel good knowing that you are about to receive a deposit in your bank account.  It also allows you to temporarily forget all the bills that will be paid the following week, and want to purchase those couple of things you don’t need.  Now that you have money, you BMF (Blow Money Fast).  As I stated, what would happen if this was the week after you got paid?  You’ve already paid a couple of bills, spent money on those couple of items that you really don’t need and now you receive a letter stating the health insurance, which you was counting on paying the surgery costs, will no longer?
When placed into extreme situations, we will either spiritually push closer to God, or react from a physical cause and affect stance.  Children were never asked to be brought into this world, so as a Parent, we have an immediate notion to protect our children at all costs.  You ask any Parent if they would be willing to give their own life for their child and without thinking the natural consensus would be yes.  With all the unnecessary murders that occur in Chicago, Illinois, you would think organ donation would be higher.  Even if it is, the untimely circumstance of Michael, created a push in the opposite direction for Michael’s father.  As one could imagine, Michael’s father was overly patient on the outside, but frantic inside as he counted down the seconds, minutes, hours, and days Michael had left.
The problem Michael’s father faced was not that he was told there was nothing that could be done, but that he believed there was nothing else that could be done.  Point blank, without money, the Poor Class cannot pay for necessary amenities that are available to the Middle and Upper Classes.  Credit?  You need money to show good faith that you can in fact have the means to pay later what you are consciously not paying for upfront, or cannot pay for upfront.  Naturally, you would ask, why not call organizations, care providers, and even doctors to see what all can be done?  As the saying goes, “Time is money, and money can afford lots of time.”  No one does favors for someone who appears the favor can never be reciprocated at a later time.  Due to this, no one was even willing to hear this one of many thousands of problems concerning a healthcare procedure to save a life.  This was especially the case due to the fact that waiting lists allocate usable organs to persons at the top of the list.  As stated, money can afford lots of time, and if Michael’s father had money, a list would not be a problem.  Faced with a problem, as any parents do, Michael’s father tried to solve the problem rather than asking God for guidance and support.
As with most extreme circumstances, leaning on God as a first choice is easier said than done.  To have faith is something God requires of us.  This is because it’s so easy to believe and understand what our minds understand to be a natural order as opposed to believing that which we cannot understand.  When we have faith to trust that God will pull us through any circumstance we encounter, He will provide a peace of mind as we grow.
Trusting his own abilities and understanding the limitations of what he was told, Michael’s father attempted one last resort.  This resort was to commit suicide, and use his heart to save the life of his son.  As the trigger was pulled, which caused a reaction as a jump of nerves, there was a click with no bang.  For some reason, the safety was still on, which gave just enough time for Michael’s father to get enough nerve to attempt another pull of the trigger.  Just before one complete squeeze, Michael’s father got word that there was a match for a heart transplant.  Due to his lack of faith, Michael’s father was charged, went to jail, and as a result, missed important years of his son’s life.  If only he had faith that God would see them through, Michael’s father would have saw the unraveling of a perfect path God setup.  Solomon told us not to lean on our own understandings. 

New International Version
Proverbs 3:5
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own undersanding;

When we do not trust in God we inadvertently veer off an established path for one we create.  If create as you go is better than planned, then the notion of a planned idea would be pointless.   If Michael’s father realized what is impossible for man is possible for God, he would have prayed as Paul said, without ceasing.

King James Version
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
Rejoice evermore. Pray without ceasing. In everything give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you.

If Michael’s father patiently waited for the matching donor to be available, Michael would have not only had a new heart, but he would have had his father next to him during his recovery.  The path Michael’s father created was different than the path God outlined thus making the journey much less ideal.  Even though God is merciful, He gave us free will to travel a path we create with our own understandings.

New International Version
Deuteronomy 4:31
For the Lord your God is a merciful God; he will not abandon or destroy you or forget the covenant with your forefathers, which he confirmed to them by oath.

It’s not enough to have faith. Faith needs action to confirm the believing.  If we simply have faith and act by trusting God has a solution we will grow with each situation we encounter.  As always these trials are designed to equip us with the necessary tools we need for the next trial, but if we divert from God’s path by acting on a way out of the circumstance, then we directly stunt our spiritual growth.  Trust in God, have faith that God has a plan, and have patience to see the path expose itself as you grow.

English Standard Version
James 2:14
What good is it, my brothers, if someone says he has faith but does not have works? Can that faith save him?